Pull In Case Of Emergencies:

An acknowledgement of the need for healthcare.
August 2024


    Had a loop recorder, a device the size of a AAA battery, implanted in my chest to monitor my heart and relay any irregularities to the cardiologist. There haven't been any episodes of lightheadedness or any dizzy spells since I've been an inpatient. Had ultrasounds performed on my neck and heart as well as a stress test.

    I had hoped to be home by now, and may be able to tomorrow morning. However, this morning the doctor informed me that my heart is weak and has prescribed medicine that will help to strengthen it. There's no end date for how long I will have the device in my chest or how long I may need to take the medicine. That's something only time will tell.

    At this time, I don't have any limitations and will be able to do all the things I was previously. However, I will certainly be more mindful of how my body is responding to external and internal stimuli.

    When walking into an emergency room there exists an acknowledgement, one that hints at the uncertainty of a potentially life changing diagnosis. Being fearful while existing within that space has the potential to hold you hostage just long enough to push you outside the window where restorative or preventative care measures could be effective.

    Although receiving the news has made me a little down, I am still very optimistic about my future. I am glad that I ultimately did come to the hospital, even if it did take me a very long time to commit to it.

    I'm very grateful for all the expressed support and well wishes, the check-ins and drop-ins, the texts and phone calls. Its my hope that I will be released tomorrow because I miss my cat. It would also be nice to be present for the screening of my documentary.